So here I am, one year later, since I shared with you my cancer experience, and what is different?
Honestly, I thought it would be over. On to the next chapter of my life… however, in a twisted kind of way, nope it’s not… SIGH!!!!
Let me explain: Yes, I’m (as of right now) cancer-free. THANK YOU LORD and the UNIVERSE!!!
However, I do get (what I’ve dubbed) a creepy gloomy black cloud that looms when it is time for my follow-ups or when waiting on my mammogram appointments or, even worse, the anniversary of my diagnosis… ouffffaaa
Please understand, deep down, I feel BLESSED. However, I’ve noticed that my mind does "go there" (even though I fight hard not to allow it to). I’m a TRUE BELIEVER in the power of the mind – mind over matter. But since this happened, I find myself going "there" (GRRRRR). I don’t want to, but it happens sometimes, for a short period and sometimes not.
It’s a struggle at many levels for me. I do not make it take over my life… however, it’s there, lingering.
What happens now is that I am UBER UBER UBER sensitive to EVERYTHING related to this disease (and now I’m noticing even other ones). When a news story is reported or someone I know is affected, or if I attend any kind of fundraisers, I get uber emotional. My eyes well up. I cry. I get angry. I’m empathetic. It’s a roller coaster of emotions.
Don’t get me wrong: this happened before the prognosis. However, now it’s SUPERSIZED, and I cannot control it.
So I’ve resigned to this: even though it’s over (for now), it’s not on other levels. I guess once you’ve been "touched," you become very sensitized. Please do not misunderstand - I am as positive as ever (if not more). I’m just sharing that YES it does loom there in my thoughts occasionally...
Thank you for reading – until next time…
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